Dear Best friend,
We haven't been friends for a very long time, but that doesn't make our friendship any less than the decade-old ones. For whatever time we have been together, we found the perfect friend in each other. I know you love me to death and care for me more than anyone could. I love you too. No, not your kind of love. I love you more than a friend does. Not only do I want to be there for you, I want to be with you. With you- through thick and thin, through chaos and calm, through everything. But, I know you don't want that.
For quite some time, my heart fooled me into believing that something like this could happen; that absent feeling might become existent some day. I took my time, but realised, that this won't happen. Sometimes during our late night chats; sometimes while walking with you; sometimes while making fun of you- there have been many times when I wanted to tell you the truth, but couldn't. That helplessness was killing me, and I had to come to a conclusive decision, and so I did.
I decided to move back. Not from the friendship, but from my feelings, because what we have right now is more precious to me than what we might have. We would still be friends even if I had told you, but the magic would have vanished. To keep your magical friendship intact, I choose to move back and come to the page where you are, for being there for you is more important than my wish of being with you.
Love,
The girl who will always be there.
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